It's Strange

The last year and a half have been months of personal transformation for me. I have sometimes fumbled, sometimes soared, sometimes gotten stuck. It's all part of the journey. Before going through my various "ah ha" moments, I was pretty obssessed about getting married (even though I really didn't want to admit that!) It makes sense to me now: even though I believe that the desire to find a life partner is healthy and good, the mindset I used to have was that in order for me to be a complete person, I had to get married.

It's strange (strange meaning not formerly familiar...)- now I'm in a place where I actually feel more complete on my own than I ever have before (sometimes, I feel like I even have a crush on myself!) Because of these truths I'm learning about myself, the desire to find a partner is still there, but it's more refined. I want companionship, not completion. It's incredible and exciting! I don't need a man to complete me. And I imagine this will help me find a man who is full himself (not full of himself...). We'll be two wholes of a whole... I'm excited to see what that will be like.

For all of us journeying through these new, strange and wonderful things, here's a quote someone gave me that I find truly inspiring:

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.

Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, tha frightens us.

We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?'

Actually, who are not to be?

You are a child of God.

Your playing small doesn't serve the world.

There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.

We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.

It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.

And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.

As we are liberated from our own fears, our presence automatically liberates others."

- Marianne Williamson